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| Question.
Is it possible to love somebody to the point where it makes you angry?
No you will probably reply. Love and Anger are two emotions on opposite ends of the world.
Oh you never could be more wrong.
I don't even know how to feel anymore. I dont know what I want, other
than I want to follow where God leads me. But at this point in time,
even that is blurry to my eyes. So much has happened in such a short
time. I wasn't ready for it all I dont think.
Looking back at pictures from a year or two ago I begin to remember. I
remember a time when I was truly happy. I knew what I
wanted.......which was nothing, because I had the only thing in the
world that meant something to me. But now I dont have that anymore..and
I dont know why. That is where the frustration begins to knock on the
door.
As the months draw closer to the begining of next school year, I sort
of feel like I am losing my chance. If I dont act now, she will be gone
forever. She will deny the fact that there will be too many things
going on to remember about me, but I know the reality of the matter.
In all honesty. I'm scared.
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| sometimes you have to do things that you dont want to. that aspect of life sucks.
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| Okay, sometimes I'm just too lazy to update this journal. Meh, what ya gonna do?
Where to start? Our CD seems to be sparking a lot of interest in everybody. The release show in on the 11th, we will see how that goes. I'm so ready to tour, but we still have a few more songs to work on before we have a strong "tour ready" set. How has my life been? Work, School, Work, School, Church, Amanda, Band. same ol'
But God has really been opening my eyes lately about some things that need to change. Things that I need to surrender to Him. But it is tough. I keep putting it off, hoping the see a "sign" that He wants to lead me down another path. But I know that no matter where He leads me that it will be down a path that is in His will for my life, and I have faith that all things will work out if I surrender my life to the Lord.
On another subject, sometimes my friends make really dumb decisions. Sometimes I have to step in and tell them that they are dumb. I just haven't done it yet.
That is all for now.
-JD | | |
| Oh Oh Oh, something awesome happened today. I got into Sociology class and my teacher handed me a memo out of the blue that said I needed to talk to some lady about a work-study program. So I went and talked to her and she offered me a job as a work-study at the school making like 300 bucks a month. I know this is a blessing directly from God because I have been looking for a second part time job and have been praying about it vigorously and then BAM just out of the blue I get this. I dont even know how they got my name! haha
Okay, with that said I can move on now.
Uhm...I'm watching some thing on Vh1 about Paris Hilton, it seems they always have something about Paris Hilton on here...I honestly dont even think she is that hot. meh.
This weekend was cool. It was Billy's birthday so I hung out with him and mike. I stayed up until 7 am playing Halo 2. I consider that a night well spent. Then we went to waffle house and I sung Avril Lavigne to billy and played the air drums while the waitress was trying to take everybodies order. Fun night.
Piece out homies,
JD | | |
| So it is friday night and I have nothing to do. I'm sitting here typing this eating a totinos pizza with a glass of Mello Yello. What an exciting life.
I guess I could call somebody, somebody in particular, but then I think I would regret that later. I'll just sit here in my place (the bucket haha j/k) and play some Halo 2.
You know being in love is not all it is cracked up to be. Its been like almost two years of being in love for me and I still can't decide if it is worth it or not. But oh well I guess it is part of life.
Piece out. | | |
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